@ scHool---- halF blogging anD half doiNg researcH on the caLl centre. TodaY suPer hapPy cOs tml wilL be My bdaY..very fasT right, is likE one yeaR older le. turning Older meaNs becomIng auNtie but caN enJOy M18 movie lei..haHa...
My purpoSe for thIS post is tO let thoSe people whO caRe abOut me to noE why am I cryIng often during tHis perioD. the reaSon is simple "i miSs my dadDy alot"
AlthoUgh mY father anD i are not very very clOSe, but after aLl, he is my father, the one who brought mE up, suPport me And love mE..is a bonding betweeN us thaT canNot be explained. Though he left us for 3monthS+, but to me, it iS like yeaRs le. everytIme, see my mUmmy soBbing at a corner, thiNking of hIm reali make my hearT broken into piecEs. he lefT us withoUt a word. sometiMe i will wonDer whY God waNna ask hIm bacK so early? why caN't he live tiLl 80+ ? whY my fatHer so stubbOrn anD smOke? haIsss!
as His daughter, i didn't reali care much for him. never be a goOd gaL to hIm. Nv coNcern much of hIs heaLth. Taking mY father for Granted. Never cheriSh the time i havE with hIm. but everythIng is tOo late. He lefT me. ThinkIng back of thOSe happY time we had togetehr---sharIng zhu Zhang Fen, joking around, teasE mummy together, plaY majoNg anD manY more. evErythiNg is pasT..! no More future witH my Father..! Everything is plaN by God. He let my father accepted Chirst and after thrEe days, asKed my fatehr bacK to heaVen. Did you noe, my fatHEr was in great paiN when he was at the hospitaL. caN't breathe anD sleeP well. Cough like heLl. Before he was taken away, he never gavE up his life easily, struggling to live On, tryiNg all wayS to swalLow the water overcome the pain etc. in the enD, he still left silently in my mummy huG..can't imagine how my muMmy felt at that point of time. aLl the mIx feelIng, paIn & sorroW i have In my mind & heaRt are hard to taKe away. Onli TIME which will allow all these to fade away.
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